General Jackassery

It’s kind of funny, not having much to do at work and the fact that no-one has been here to talk to for the last couple of days has left me with nothing to do but surf the net. I’ve spent a lot of time looking at archived posts of my own and those of friends and other people in general. It’s neat to watch things progress in their blogs, see what there thoughts were before something happened and they had no idea it was about to happen. So people just clam up. They go from being everyday posters that write long posts, to just a few lines here and there. Then others like me seem to pour more into their journals the tougher times get, the more serious the journal becomes. What struck the most during my trip down memory lane is how big headed I have been. I thought I knew everything there was to know and I made a huge mistake in thinking that I was a bigger part of some people’s lives than I actually was. It’s really a sad revelation to finally understand that you’re no where near as important to people as you thought you were. Yeah, you may be fun to hang around with and people may enjoy your company, but they don’t really miss you when you’re not there. They just go on with there lives. Maybe they do and I just can’t see it, but I really do miss my friends. The older you get and the further you get away from college the more you need that interaction. Sometimes it’s nice to just go home after a long day at work, plop down in front of the TV and chill out, but most of the time it’s nice to have your best friend there to talk to. Anyway, looking back I kept thinking to myself, “what was I thinking.” This is one year and a half that I wouldn’t mind having a second crack at. Too bad that’s not going to happen.

Can you tell I’m bored, I did a google search on my name. Not the first time I’ve done it. I found out that I’m a renowned artist, I’m the Network Coordinator for USA Hockey, I’m a guitarist and singer for a band named Emmit Swimming and I raise some purty darn good lookin’ beagle dawgs don’t you know it. I’m all over the internet and I didn’t even have a clue!

I have an old friend trying to talk me into taking her cat from her. I’ve been thinking about getting a get for a while and this seems like a good way to do it. She’s had the cat for a year and she says it’s very affectionate and playful and doesn’t scratch despite the fact that it still has it’s front claws. Anyway, I told her I’d think about it a couple of months ago. So I talked to her today and she asked me about it. I told her she never got me a picture of the cat so I don’t know what it looks like. So, she’s supposed to shoot me a pic tonight and I may end up with a cat in the next couple of weeks. What can I say, I’m a sucker. Could be really interesting with the dogs spending more time in the house. Definitely will take some adjustment. I’m turning into the animal farm again! Well, as often as I’m the only one home lately, it would be nice to have another companion.

P.S. The cat’s name is Stich…….cute! I know, I know it’s really the last thing I need.

In other news, aside from being completely out of my mind with boredom today’s a pretty happy day.

Well, today was pretty relaxing, it was nice to just chill out. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I sat around the house all day. I drove to Nashville to catch a Predators game and it turned out that it was basically sold out. That is to say that I wasn’t willing to pay $59 for a ticket so Me and Anthony and crew wandered around downtown for a while until we settled on a place to have lunch. My one Diet Mt. Dew for the day had worn off and I was starving by 2:30 when we finally decided to settle in for lunch.

Caution: Random Thoughts ahead!

On the way back home I started thinking about expectations. Everyone has expectations of other people and sometimes we have more expectations of certain people than we do of others. I started thinking about what my expectations were in terms of my friends and loved ones. I won’t go into details about all the thoughts that went through my head, but what it boiled down to is honesty. I’ve never been one to keep secrets or try to shield the truth from anyone and I guess that’s the only expectation I have of people. Call me nosey. Seems like honesty eliminates assumptions. Anyway, like I said, random thoughts.

Todder, Out!