On one knee
That’s kind of how I feel today. Like I’m on one knee and don’t quite have the strength to stand on my two feet.
It’s funny how life is! If you count the number of good things that happen in any given day I feel pretty certain that they would out number all the bad things that go on. However, the bad things are all we seem to be able to remember. It’s kind of the same with wants and needs. Once you finally have something that you wanted or needed there’s always something else that you want or need and people just never seem to be able to make themselves happy with what they have. I guess it’s the thrill of the chase.
My Dad used to always say that when things get bad, he just looks to the sky and say’s “Thanks God! I have no complaints!”
Okay, take all of that stuff an wrap into a tortilla and you have the burrito that’s been stuck in my head all morning. The question of “why can’t you just be happy with what you have?” is continually going through my head. If I count the number of things that have gone right for me or been good for me this morning and I count the things that have gone wrong, they are clearly in the favor of the good. So why is it that I’m done?
I don’t need anything! I have everything I ever wanted and I have somethings that I wasn’t sure I’d ever have.
I’d love to be able to say that I’m going to stop wanting and just be happy with what I have, but I can’t say that! Not wanting makes you complacent. You get stuck in ruts that way.
I’ll never forget, getting on my bike a couple of weeks ago in the pouring rain. I had forgotten to turn the crockpot on and I was planning on having dinner cooked when I got home, so my only option was to go back to the house and turn the crockpot on, but I didn’t want to drive. If I drove to the house I would waste my chance at getting my ride in that day. So I road my bike the 14 miles to the house and the 14 miles back to work, in the rain. As I was riding that day I passed three little signs on the side of the road. I have no idea what their intent was or why they were there, but they said Do……….You………Desire?
The answer to that question is a resounding “Yes” there are SO many things that I desire and I’m not going to stop until I get what I want out of life for me!
I AM going to do my best to stop dwelling on things that don’t go my way, but I’m NOT going to stop wanting.
Okay, back to the real world where work awaits
Todder